God gives me what I don't deserve

God has made me realize something today, and for you to truly understand it I'm going to create a scenario for you.

Imagine that you and one of your very best friends have recently grown apart from each other. They are too busy for you. They have better, more important things to do than hang out with you. The two of you still talk occasionally, but it's always about them, their problems, their life.

They ask you to do a big favor for them, something that will relieve them and take a lot of weight off of their shoulders. You, being the good friend you are, do the favor for them anyway even though you all aren't as close.

You do the favor and they feel a lot better. You were glad to help them out. However, they still rarely communicate with you. In fact, they don't even thank you for doing the favor. How do you feel about this? Disappointed.

I'm positive God has felt this toward me the past couple weeks. If you didn't catch along, God is the good friend in this story, and  I'm the friend who asks for the favor. And does nothing in return.

During the past month or so, I have experienced mass amounts of stress. I have been crazy busy. And somewhere along the way, I started pushing God to the side. I wasn't spending time with Him, and when I prayed, it was usually begging for help. Crying out to relieve my stress. Asking for some peace in my life.

Of course God, being the awesome god He is, answered my prayer. I'm sure he wasn't happy that I was putting other things in my busy life above Him, yet He loves me so much He still gave me what I needed.

Today, after being stress free for a few days, I just realized it was God that brought me through that struggling time. I was nearly overwhelmed to the point of tears on a daily basis. Every day I would wake up in a bad mood. I didn't want to feel like that. It was too much to handle. So God pulled me out of that.

I haven't been giving God the attention and time He deserves. I haven't been thanking Him enough for everything He's done for me. Now that I've come to my senses, I'm going to change that. For real this time.

I serve an amazing God that will help me through any storm that may come up in my life. Therefore,  I'm going to do my best to make Him the center of my life, and my first priority.

Thank you God, for loving me and protecting me even when I am straying away from you and don't deserve everything you give me. Thank you for pulling me aside and letting me know I need to get some things straight. Thank you for being my best friend.

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